In Case You Are Wondering....

In case you are wondering where the heck we have been....and I know you have been, we have mostly been somewhere between Upstate SC and the beach, with a little bit of time spent in each location.  The kids and I have been haulin' it back and forth so we can spend time with my husband and their father.  His third floor apartment is not really the perfect fit for our family.  So, we go and spend as much time as we can until we start to go nutty, and then we head back.  

We thought the madness might be coming to an end soon and that G's company was going to be making some decisions about a permanent placement for us this week.....but they changed their minds and decided to hold off on any decision making until May.  Yes, I cried when I found this out. Yes, this little journey has made me a cry baby.  By the time it is all said and done with, Garrett and I will have lived apart for almost an entire YEAR.   We are hoping he can get some new housing so we can be together.....please pray that this is possible.  Also pray that I would stop being plagued with little kid type illness....my newest diagnosis as of this morning, Tonsillitis.  Who over the age of 7 has tonsillitis...apparently I do.  And little Em is acting all out of sorts and keeps saying, "Mommy hurt," so we are headed to the pediatrician in a few hours. 

I can't lie, Garrett and I have had the "why is the Lord allowing all of this to happen to us" conversation more than once.  Over the weekend as we were talking and struggling through the events of the past 2 years, I couldn't help but be reminded of Job.  The Lord allowed Satan to test Job because He knew Job could withstand anything Satan threw at him. After losing his business, his health, his family,  Job says to his wife when she questions his continued faith in the Lord, "Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? (job 2:10)" And he goes on to say in chapter 13, "Though he slay me, yet I will hope in him." 

Our struggles don't come close to comparing to that of Job but we feel the weight of them none the less.  However, we know that God is good because of the love He demonstrated to us through Jesus. So, we will continue to hope and trust in Him. I keep singing to myself a little song we used to sing at Young Life stuff in college...

When the morning falls on the farthest hill,

I will sing His name, I will praise Him still.

When dark trials come and my heart is filled

With the weight of doubt, I will praise Him still.

For the Lord our God, He is strong to save

From the arms of death, from the deepest grave.

And He gave us life in His perfect will,

And by His good grace, I will praise Him still.

So, in case you were wondering, that is where we have been and that is what we have been feeling. I can't say I will be posting more often....but I can't say that I won't be either.